Confronting Temptations

Elder Ephraim of Arizona, image from

Elder Ephraim of Arizona, image from

The Great Fast, also known as Great Lent, is just around the corner.  During this time, many Orthodox will begin eating a vegan diet.  Many of us will also make an effort to say a few more prayers each day and eliminate some distractions such as social media, television, and internet usage in order to create more time for prayer and spiritual reading.

These things of themselves do not save us.  Rather, they are the method which we use to open ourselves to the grace of the Holy Spirit.  Those who are taking their spiritual struggle seriously during the Great Fast will likely find that the amount of demonic warfare increases.  This manifests itself in different ways: new distractions when we pull away from old ones, a barrage of thoughts that come during prayer and spiritual reading, and other temptations that wish to test our resolve.

Many of us wonder: why do I have to face these spiritual struggles?  Wouldn’t it be so much better if God could just wave a magical wand over us and make temptations go away?  Why do we have trials?

In answer to those questions, I will post the insights and stories of a God-bearing elder whose own elder was St Joseph the Hesychast.  He is from Mt Athos and currently is the elder of a monastery in Arizona.  His name is Elder Ephraim and this is from his book The Art of Salvation. Continue reading

Assaulting God, Part 4


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In 1881, Charles Taze Russell founded Zion's Watch Tower Tract Society; image from Wikipedia

In 1881, Charles Taze Russell founded Zion’s Watch Tower Tract Society

After the first few months of meeting with the Jehovah’s Witnesses, I revealed to my neighbor that I honestly thought the Witnesses were Christians and good people, only a bit misguided. He was surprised and rightly told me that they were outside of the truth and not in a good place spiritually.

Those were my pre-Orthodox days and I was wrestling with what it meant to be a Christian. My thoughts were that there are so many thousands of ways to interpret the Bible, how can we possibly say that one group is better than another? If someone is trying to live a godly life, what does it matter if they are a mess doctrinally? Aren’t we all a mess? Continue reading

Assaulting God, Part 3

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from arguing with the Pharisees one day, we read in John 8:56 Jesus claimed,

Your father Abraham rejoiced to see My day, and he saw it and was glad.

For fairly good reasons, the Jews scratched their heads, a bit perplexed. Here was a fairly young man, roughly 30 years old, claiming to have known Abraham. So, not knowing his exact age they argue, You are not yet fifty years old, and have you seen Abraham?

Jesus said to them,

Most assuredly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I AM.

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Assaulting God, Part 2

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from of the most popular verses in the entire Bible is also from St John’s Gospel:

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”

In this we see a radical concept: Jesus is God’s only begotten Son. CS Lewis explains it quite brilliantly in Mere Christianity:

We don’t use the words begetting or begotten much in the modern English, but everyone still knows what they mean. To beget is to become the father of: to create is to make. And the difference is this. When you beget, you beget something of the same kind as yourself. A man begets human babies, a beaver begets little beavers and a bird begets eggs which turn into little birds.

But when you make, you make something of a different kind from yourself. A bird makes a nest, a beaver builds a dam, a man makes a… statue. If he is a clever enough carver he may make a statue which is very like a man indeed. But, of course, it is not a real man; it only looks like one…

What God begets is God; just as what man begets is man. What God creates is not God; just as what man makes is not man. That is why men are not Sons of God in the sense that Christ is.

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Assaulting God, Part 1

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A Biblical Defense for Christ’s Deity

Jehovahs Witnesses evangelizing (from wikipedia)Several years ago, a fairly young couple close to my age knocked on my door. After greeting them, I found that they were Jehovah’s Witnesses coming to spread their message. I asked them, “Why would I want to study the Bible with people who aren’t even Christians?”

They responded, “But we do consider ourselves Christians.” This surprised me. I knew little about them except that they were considered a cult by most Christians. My question gave them an opportunity for making a few arguments that piqued my curiosity. At that time, I was in my spiritually restless stage and looking for something deeper than the Sunday Morning Show of American Christianity.

So, after some discussion that afternoon I invited them to come back. All in all, we spent about a year meeting weekly to discuss and debate “What Does the Bible Really Teach?” which was also the name of the booklet we were working through together. Near the end of that time, I went with them to one of their Kingdom Hall meetings. Continue reading

Understanding Through Action

StNikolaiVelimirovichIn today’s culture we like to talk about ideas.  We, or at least I, sometimes talk more often than is necessary.  There’s a tendency to theologize and philosophize about God and Christ, rather than doing the simple but difficult work of knowing Him through action.

Below is today’s homily from the Prologue of Ohrid by St Nikolai Velimirovich as translated and published by the Serbian Orthodox Church Diocese of Western America.

Homily from the Prologue of Ohrid, January 21

Whoever chooses to do His will [God’s Will] shall know whether my teaching is from God” (St. John 7:17).

It benefits little to prove by human logic and words that the teaching of Christ is the teaching from God. The fastest and most reliable way to know this is truth is to do the will of God in the same way that Christ proclaimed it and testified to it. Whosoever would do this, that one will know that the teaching of Christ is the teaching from God.

If you cry for the sake of God, you will know what kind of comfort He is. If you are merciful, you know the mercy of God. If you build peace, you will know how it becomes you to be called the Son of God. If you forgive men, you will know God forgives you.

Never can anyone be able to know that the teaching of Christ is the teaching from God, except he who does the Will of God. For only doing the Will of God, fulfilling the commandments of God, that is the key for unlocking Paradise in which God is seen. That is the key for understanding Holy Scripture and all the mysteries of revelation.

St. Basil writes: “In order to understand that which is hidden in Sacred Scripture, purity of life is needed.”

What else does the Lord want from us when He teaches us that through doing His will, we arrive at the understanding of the divinity of His teaching? He simply wants that we, by our deeds, become convinced of the divinity of His teaching. He does not want that we be convinced of this in an easy manner, but rather in a more difficult manner, not only by listening but by doing, because whoever is convinced in an easy manner will easily waver and change his mind and for him who is convinced in a difficult manner, it would be difficult for him to change his mind. Brethren, that is why we must endeavor to fulfill the Will of God in order that we may know God and save our soul.

O Lord, All-Wise, help us by the power of Your Holy Spirit to do Your will.

To You be glory and thanks always. Amen.


The Sea of Darkness: A Parable

ocean 279 by He ngki24I arise from my deep slumber, my feet standing upon a rough, rocky surface. Before me lays an ocean that stretches as far as eye can see. But the ocean does not glow with the colorful light dancing about in the sky above me, nor does it reflect a deep blue or green. Instead, it seethes in blackness, and consumes the light that would have otherwise played upon its surface.

Something is amiss about this water, so I step forward for a closer inspection only to leap back to where I stood before. What lay before me is not an ocean of water, but rather an abyss of vermin and foul creatures crawling upon one another. Behind me is no sure footing, it seems the rough rocky surface upon which I stand is the only place left in this love-forsaken world.

Suddenly, an angel stands at my right side. “Where am I?” I plead.

“The place you would not understand,” he replies with solemn countenance.

“What is this terrible ocean that surrounds me?” I ask fearfully.

“This endless, abysmal sea,” he says while extending his hand about us, “is filled with the sins of your entire life, from youth to old age.”

“Certainly I could not have sinned that much!” I protest, not because I think him a liar, but because of the fearful truth in his words. Continue reading

My Journey into The Ancient Church, Part 2

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Old Cells by Sergey Kompaniychenko - Valaam MonasteryAfter months of what felt like dry liturgical services, my quasi-Pentecostal mindset wondered: where is the Holy Spirit in all of this? I recognized the validity the Orthodox Church’s claims to have the same beliefs and practices as the early church, but what good is that if the Holy Spirit has abandoned them and their services are dead and boring?

It was then that I somehow came across the book The Way of a Pilgrim. It is the story of a young Russian peasant during the late 1800’s who set out on a quest to experientially understand St Paul’s command to “pray without ceasing.” Continue reading

My Journey into The Ancient Church, Part 1

Winter by Hieromonk Savvaty (Valaam Monastery)

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My journey into Orthodoxy was not easy.  But it is not meant to be easy.  It challenged me (and continues to do so) to become the person God has created me to be, and to recognize my place in His Body, the Church.

When one becomes Orthodox they are called a “convert,” which helps to emphasize just how much of a change one must experience.  Becoming Orthodox is not simply acknowledging one belief system as being superior to another.  It is an ontological change, meaning it regards your entire being. Continue reading

A Timely Homily

Coptic Nativity iconThe following is a homily I recently read that was originally intended for the Feast of the Annunciation, but because that feast is so closely tied to Nativity in its themes, I decided to share it here at this time.  It is the third homily on this subject by the bishop St Gregory the Wonderworker, probably written sometime around AD 260-275.

It was one long paragraph and I have divided it into several sections so that it is much easier to read.  All of the bold type is my addition and the italics my emphasis.  In particular, I wanted to emphasize that salvation in early Christianity was understood to be God rescuing his beautiful creation from death, which had entangled it due to sin.  In that regard, it is full of poetic love and (like all Christian writings from antiquity that I have read) it lacks any concept of a wrathful God desiring to take out his anger and justice upon His son on the cross.  Especially enlightening is the dialogue between Gabriel and the Lord. Continue reading

The Everyday Martyrdom

Christ being taken down from the cross“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.(Jn 15:13)

I was reminded of the words of Christ while reading last night.  The Christians in the ancient Roman Empire (third century) were being persecuted, turned from their homes, burned, tortured, and beheaded.  A civil war broke out and then a plague infested the area, which distracted the unbelievers from the persecution.

I was deeply moved by the account which St Dionysius the Great wrote* regarding the total selfless and divine love the Christians displayed.  I will quote him at length here:


Certainly very many of our brethren, while, in their exceeding love and brotherly-kindness, they did not spare themselves, but kept by each other, and visited the sick without thought of their own peril, and ministered to them assiduously, and treated them for their healing in Christ, died from time to time most joyfully along with them, lading themselves with pains derived from others, and drawing upon themselves their neighbours’ diseases, and willingly taking over to their own persons the burden of the sufferings of those around them.
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The Key to Unlocking the Scriptures my Protestant years, I dabbled in a subculture of hip, intellectual Christians.  They knew a bit of Greek, a dash of Hebrew, Jewish customs of the New Testament era, and history and culture of the Judea region during the Roman rule. When studying the Bible, we would ask, What are the underlying Greek/Hebrew words used here? What is the sociological and political context? Who is speaking and who is the audience? What are modern scholars saying about this passage?


Now that I am Orthodox, I do not engage in such activities quite as often. It is not that those things are wrong. In fact, when one looks past the intellectual pride of unlocking and parading some unknown meaning in the text, these questions truly reveal an unspoken confession. Namely that we realize a literal, straight-forward reading of the biblical text only reveals partial meanings.  When one’s entire faith relies on the right understanding of a book, that can be problematic. Continue reading