A Conversation

“I often feel, when I try to repent, that God looks at me saying, ‘You again?  Ugh.  Why can’t you ever get it right?’” she said to me.

“I think that is because we forget that each side eagerly wants to win us over,” I replied.  “The devil keeps receiving us back into sin, even after we’ve turned to God and made a good confession.  We have no problem believing that the devil will always take us back.  However, God desires our return even more so.  Our Lord told the Apostle Peter to forgive his brother seventy times seven.  The Lord is even more merciful than that and will forgive us more than seventy times seven everyday if necessary.”

I continued, “The Lord’s capacity for mercy and love far exceeds the devil’s for hatred.  As much as the devil wants to see us fall, and as much as we feel that pressure, he is not nearly as motivated as God is to see us saved.”

“But I still can’t help thinking of God as being angry.  He must have his finger hovering over the ‘Smite’ button when he looks at me,” she said. Continue reading A Conversation

The Unholy Double Standard

I think anyone who is diligently pursuing the spiritual life of repentance knows the frustration of losing the battle to sin on a daily basis.  Many of us have habitual sins that we cannot seem to break.  We fall into sin, we feel dirty and unworthy, we ask God to forgive us, and then we get up and try again.

However, if we are to be honest, many of us sometimes feel at least a hint of hopelessness.   We wonder if God really wants to take us back.  If we’re constantly falling into the same sin over and over, will God justly become angry with us and refuse to accept our repentance?

The devil would sure like for us to lose hope.  But here is the double standard: when repenting of a sin, and then being tempted to fall into it again, I have never said to myself, “No, I might as well give up on sinning.  After repenting so many times, I don’t think the Devil will take me back.” Continue reading The Unholy Double Standard